My Yoke
For the past 2 days, it has really been quite hectic and tiring, but nonetheless interesting as compared to the usual daily routine.
Yesterday was Combined Church Youth Sports Day! It was conducted very early in the morning whereby my church mates and I have to gather at RV point - Boon Lay MRT control tower at 815am. Then we had to travel from west to north - Ang Mo Kio, which in turn, we did a change to a bus which leads us to May Flower Secondary School. There is where we hard our sports day.
As usual, I participated in the game of soccer as a striker but ended up as a last man (defender) with my team of 5 - Amos, Daniel, Yu ren & Kai Shou. All of the teams played quite competitively. All were good and hard world-class sportsmanship & gamesmanship. The outcome was not so important but truely the process - whether if you enjoyed the game. We always say, "For the love of the game."
Immediately after the mini soccer tournament ended, I made my way to the floorball court and started playing. I was substituted in by the grace of Julian. But I guess I was not good enough that I caused the team to lose from 2-1 to 7-3. Oops. Afterwhich, I went away to participate in another basketball game, where I made new friends. On the whole, I was both famished and tired.
After the event, my church youths and Good News youths made our way to AMK Hub for our lunch. However, we were pangsehed by them as they wish to eat Macdonalds and we do not. Yet, we also do not know what we should eat there. Thus, we came up with the most corny idea of travelling to Vivo City from AMK Hub by bus. I tell you, it was a superb long journey! There, we caught a movie by Nicholas Cage - Bangkok Dangerous, then took bus 97 to IMM for dinner, and bus 99 back home.
Similar to saturday, I woke up around the same time as today. Went church, and today was Lord Supper. I never had this feeling before but somehow or another, the Holy Spirit gave me or rather us - Yi Xin, this feeling. Lord Supper is as if people have taken it for granted. It has long lost its significance, especially to me. I never knew what it was or even if I do, I did not respect or sincerly gave my all for what it was. To me, Lord Supper is just a piece of bread and a cup of ribena.
It was until today then its significance impacted deep in my heart. From the time of Adam, Mankind has disappointed God. As a creator, when you create things, you have high expectations of your the thing you created, however, it just turn out otherwise. How hard you as a creator will feel? Imagine. Then from Adam all the way till present times, have we not once disappoint God?
There is so many things that we do that God can easily condemned us. Each time He sees us sinning, He feels angry, sad, disappointed but yet He cannot bear leaving us just aside and ignore us because He so love us. His great love has long surpass every understanding that His Grace filled upon us, giving us His forgiveness everytime even though we do not deserve it.
However, we did not get touch by His love. Instead, we took it for granted. God saw no choice but to use His final resort because if He does not, we difinitely will not be saved. And that final resort was the cruxification of His One and Only beloved Son - Jesus Christ.
I began to imagine about Jesus Christ's love for us. It is the most magnificent. He came down as a human form to suffer with us even though He was crowned prince. Then He put everyone before him except himself. He went around to touch people's heart, to teach them, to heal them, to save them, to inspire them. However, there came a time, in Jerusalem, that the people whom He wants to save so badly, cruxified him. Can you imagine how He felt? The people whom He has fought so hard to die for now want to put Him to death!
In life, how we wish every single moment, there's someone thinking about you. Likewise, God too. Jesus told the disciples, "Take the cup and the bread, and do this in remembrance of me." I imagined what has happened, and I saw bitterness in the picture. Now then I understood how great the love I have already received is. How important His body and blood it is to me. They are my life.
After church, I went Pastor's place for some fellowship, then just finish watching Wall-E with David, Ai Ling and Victor again. This is my second time watching this movie in a week. It is really a touching movie that somehow or another, I got emoed.
In fact, I wished badly that I can get back what I have lost or rather I be like Wall-E, at the ending part, loses his memories. I have been trying to bear the pain but I do not know when it will reach the threshold. I am still fighting hard but how I wish I can just give up and die. The pain is too unbearable. Somebody, please. I wish to forget my entire life.
I am so so tired.
