Indeed, times are hard and many fears just appear out of nowhere all of the sudden. All kinds of negative feelings just come into you at the split second and you find it hard to adapt to it. You just do not know what to do!? The path which leads to giving up became the brightest at that moment and you follow that lead. No! It is not the path that leads to giving up that brings you light. You have to face your fears and lostness, in order for you to find light in darkness. Does light just appear out of nowhere in the darkness of your apartment? It is you who finds the switch, the key, that leads to light.
No matter how tough it is, how much you wish to giving up, stand firm and hold it just right there. Yes, you are going against the huge current but you need to tell yourself this, "Problem, I have a Big God" instead of, "God, I have a Big Problem." By running away from the problem is like running away from the huge current, or along with the huge current. And in the direction of the current, you will only be swept away, further from the shore, which leads you to peace and safety. This is why in times like this, no matter how tough you may feel, you still have to face the problem. Do to your scenario in the opposite way in how the world will do. This is what God has revealed to me.
Emotions are just part and parcel of life. It spices life up but also brings life down. However, we need to appreciate that when it spices life up, it is a bonus but when it brings life down, it is a trial. Regardless of whichever path emotions head to, both leads to you being a better man. Trials mould you to become stronger.
It is a torment to go against the huge current. Indeed, this is what I am feeling. It is torturous, as if you were in place of Jesus Christ at the cross. Of course, it is not as bad. During the moments, you just see darkness. I believe this is what Jesus has seen. He felt like giving up, crying out to His Father his agony and pain. But He knows that through His suffering, it will lead to light. Indeed, after a long stretch of road through darkness, He found His loving Father smiling at Him, saying, "My Beloved Son, you have done your part on Earth, now come back to the right-hand side of my throne."
