Emotions are the necessity of life given by God, so that our life is beautify by them and not being monotonous. They can come in many many forms - Happiness, Sadness, Jealousy, Joy, Peace, etc. Each and every one brings across different form of messages and stimulates different way of thinking and actions. For example, when you do something wrong and you know it, you feel guilty. That is how emotions work.
Emotions are very powerful. They can be generated by 3 forms of beings - God, Us and The Devil. Now that I reconsidered what I have typed 2 hours ago, I realised the above were lies caused by the devil. He made used of my weakness, made use of my jealousy, etc to inculcate negative thoughts so that I will look down on myself hence make me more prone to sinning.
Now that I am at peace, this is what I am going to say:
"Always put lots of emphasis on relationships. It is my strength and my weakness. One by one I have lost. Too much, I cannot come back anymore. I have lost. "
Through the grace of God, I can come back. I have lost everything in life but that doesn't matter because God is always there for me. Through Him, I can pick myself up, step by step from ground level, to be led by Him back to the top.
(Am I dumb, stupid or idiotic? Even though she doesn't love me anymore And she had fell in love with other guy I still stand strong to stay by her. I am enduring every pain every second Without letting her know So that it will not affect her life. Pray for someone whom caused me pain. Encourage someone whom broke my heart. Kept initiating things to show that I am strong. But actually I am not. I have lost... Am I dumb, stupid or idiotic?
No I am not. Yes, she may not love me anymore and love someone else, but does it matter? I said I love her and God said love is unconditional. So regardless of what happens, I still love. God commanded, "Love your neighbours as yourself, even your enemies." I may hate her but still I love her. That is agape love.
Yes I know what you are going to think or say. I am foolish, ain't I? But this is what I am going to reply: This is not wishful thoughts for I am obeying what my Father taught me. God is always showing us an ongoing example of such love.
You always sin against God, do you? Does it give God many reasons to hate you? Very much. But what did he chose to do? He forgive and continue to stay by your side, to support you always, to encourage you when you are down, even if you disregard his existence or you forget about Him, He still waits patiently to the day you return to Him. Because He Loves You.
You must be thinking so what does God's example do with us? Till end life, as christians, are we not moving towards Christ likeness or are we moving towards what the world defines how we should present ourselves?