Life is All about Choices!
This year is really a bad year for me. Too many unfortunate events happened throughout the year: Denial of 2 years of my life, entering school which I didn't opt for, friend leaving and much much more. These series of events really did cause lots of pain and made me lose all my hope in life. At times, I really regret being a Christian...God give humanity many of his promises. They sound and look the most perfect when one starts to hear and imagine. But there is a saying, "No Pain No Gain." A Christian life was and is never easy. I am not born a Christian. My life before I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and personal saviour, I led my life through feelings. The focus was on self. As long as I felt good, that is all it matters. Never did I consider the consequences or how others felt. If you know me, I am a solo-player. After I accepted Christ, things became much different. The Word of God starts flowing through your veins, and everything is about what God says. It is really very contradicting in the way how God wants us to live and the way we choose to live. From that point of time, I began to have many choices and it all classifies under 2 main category, (1) God-directed [Knowing] or (2) World-directed [Feeling].Now, life is getting even tougher. You have to base your judgements under 2 influences, knowing what is right and feeling right. In most circumstances, people rather choose to feel right than what is right. Easiest to talk, about relationships. Couples come together because they felt right with one another. They began to explore into deeper relationship as one and at the end, ended up as individuals again. So, how do we explain such phenomena? Does not this proves that feeling right is not equavalant to what is right? In short, an advise is to appreciate this reality and decide under peace, knowing what is right and not what felt right.I find it really amusing (pardon me) always, when people find excuses to defend themselves even when they are in the wrong. Excuses just prove that you have Inferiority Complex. It does not help to correct any bit of what has already happened. The irony is: It is not as if we do not have a choice to decide. Our creator gave us the free will. People know what is not right but they still choose to do and when consequences fall upon them, they wanna push the blame to others.Just like the story of Adam and Eve:"And the Lord god commanded the man, 'You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat of it you will surely die." (Genesis 2:16-17)God told Adam specifically not to eat from the tree of knowledge. It was a clear instruction. Moreover, God helped Adam to weigh the consequences. And the consequences are spiritual death, denial to eternity, etc. But what has happened? Both Adam and Eve knows it, say it but did not live it. They "felt" it was okay and thus ate. When God questioned, Adam blamed Eve and Eve blamed the serpent. So how? Whose fault is it? The Serpent? The serpent only suggested but at the end of the day it was both Adam and Eve's decisions.The circumstances on me really made me felt like shit. At times, I subdue to it in believing that I am no value to the society because I am such a failure. I have lost many, too much to count. I dare not say I lived my life fully for others but most of the times, I put others first more than I put myself. Sometimes I really regret doing that because others do not do that for me, but still I have to obey what God says..."Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." (Proverbs 3:6-7)"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,' declares the Lord" (Jeremiah 29: 11-14)In Conclusion, for non-christians know what is right and do what is right; avoid doing through feelings. Do not wait till the point where you regret and everything is not under your control. Feelings are irrational. As for christians, always hang on to God. Never turn back even if you feel really uncomfortable. As long as God says this, do this because loving Him is through obedience to Him.
